Nothing ever stops all these thoughts and the pain attached to them
Sometimes I wonder why this is happening
It's like nothing I can do would distract me when
I think of how I shot myself in the back again
'Cause from the infinite words I could say I
Put all pain you gave to me on display
But didn't realize instead of setting it free I
Took what I hated and made it a part of me

(Never goes away)
(Never goes away)
 [bad word] 
(And now)
(You've [bad word] a part of me)
(You'll always be right here)
(You've [bad word] a part of me)
(You'll always be my fear)
(I can't separate)
(Myself from what I've done)
(Giving up a part of me)
(I've let myself [bad word] you)

Hearing your name the [bad word] back again
I remember when it started happening
I see you in every thought I had and then
The thoughts slowly found words attached to them
And I knew as they escaped away
I [bad word] myself to them and everyday
I regret saying those things cuz now I see that I
Took what I hated and made it a part of me

(Never goes away)
(Never goes away)
 [bad word] 
(And now)
(You've [bad word] a part of me)
(You'll always be right here)
(You've [bad word] a part of me)
(You'll always be my fear)
(I can't separate)
(Myself from what I've done)
(Giving up a part of me)
(I've let myself [bad word] you)

(Never goes away)
(Never goes away)
(Never goes away)
(Never goes away)

(Get away from me)
Give me my space back you gotta just
(Go) [bad word] down the memories of
(You)
I've kept it in but now I'm letting you
(Know)
I let you go so get away from
(Me)
Give me my space back you gotta just
(Go) [bad word] down the memories of
(You)
I've kept it but now I'm letting you
(Know)
I let you go

(And now)
(You've [bad word] a part of me)
(You'll always be right here)
(You've [bad word] a part of me)
(You'll always be my fear)
(I can't separate)
(Myself from what I've done)
(Giving up a part of me)
(I've let myself [bad word] you)

I've let myself [bad word] you
I've let myself [bad word] lost inside these thoughts of you
Giving up a part of me, I've let myself [bad word] you