I swear I'll [bad word] home!

I'm a mess, can't contain all the lies and the hate 
that fuel my bitter [bad word] show me a better way. 
Torn between two cities, I mourn the death of my dreams. 
Everything happens so fast I can't get a grip on reality.

All this time and I still don't know why, 
I can't get out of these [bad word] [bad word] and back to the daylight. 
Every single day is the same. 
I only want the chance to rearrange.

No you can't move on to the future, if you're still living in the past. 
I turn my back but it never lasts, it will never last. 
All that I can do is try to pull myself out of the clouds, 
and turn away from anything that can bring me down. 
I look around but there's not a sound. 
You don't make a sound.

Step away so I can see the former mistakes that define me. 
All I can gather is nothings cheap. 
Apparently I am my own worst enemy. 
I am my own worst enemy. [bad word]  

No you can't move on to the future, if you're still living in the past. 
I turn my back but it never lasts, it will never last. 
All that I can do is try to pull myself out of the clouds, 
and turn away from anything that can bring me down. 
I look around but there's not a sound. 
You don't make a sound.

I will always stay within the light. 
Kill all hesitation.