I wish to learn
Should i be first
Wherever i've been
I had [bad word] last

Something's around
Something's behind
Always unusual
Deaf, freak and blind
Should i observe
What i can't see
Should i be killed
To find at last me

Suicide fades away, 
Further, every year
Thrown off the scale on wrong way
It prefers its own way
Beyond the pain i skin myself
For all i've done, for all i can't
But suicide is hide again
Should i be in, should lie again