i have memories
clouded by sorrow
of a time in life
when blood ran though my veins

but these walls keep closing
suffocating
and now i'm trapped beneath
the weight of my own loss

in [bad word] 
of my misery
i gasp for air
only to drown
again

unending waves of memories
life's only gife bestowed to me

regret
every moment marks
a breaking of my heart
and now i'm left alone
with this ghost that i've [bad word] 
for years i've built
this monument of pain
i must find a way
to never feel again