Friendleader (исполнитель: A Karkat Vantas Fansong By PhemieC)
There will be no Soft sounds this time No arms Not mine at least. Should've expected this, I guess No "shh" can sooth your beast And it was my problem once, That violence inside your eyes. Bright red and high with dead and pie, And rage that never dies. And I used to blame myself, Then I blamed everybody else, But never you. Cause you were just a messed up kid, Who'd step in it, get scared and sit, And pray for goats and gods Who would know what to forbid. And when you would reach out, well [bad word] my big mean mouth And make it worse. And maybe I deserve that hurt, [bad word] of my universe, So if you gotta beat somebody up Don't make it her. I'm sorry, I messed up, I'm not a leader anymore. I'm sorry, I messed up, I'm not a leader Not a leader, Not a leader, friend. No more attempts to make you see, I tried, he succeeded, oh well. But what can I say to girl, Who'd play with noose of excuses untill Her big wicked grin disappears in the smoke, And crack goes the rope pulled [bad word] I know enough about doubt, and hating myself, To tell that you now know it too. And I used to blame myself, Then I blamed everybody else, Including you. But you were perfect as you were All angled out, a blinding blur, So bright and beautiful, and clever, Yeah for sure. But when you would reach out, Well [bad word] my big mean moth And make a mess. And now it's my turn to confess I wasn't there, I didn't guess. That you were slipping, 'Till you tripped right off the edge. I'm sorry, I messed up, I'm not a leader anymore. I'm sorry, I messed up, I'm not a leader Not a leader, Not a leader, I'm not a leader anymore, No more. Said a thousands words, But they never helped. I hid my scars from you Out of shame. Took up the cause, Yeah I took the helm, But I'm not the only one Who's changed. I knew you first, I knew you best I wish I'd stopped it Way back then When things were bad, But they still made sense. When we were kids, When we were friends. Friendleaders. Friendleaders. Friendleaders. Friendleaders...