As I reach out my hands to the sky
It's in this moment that [bad word] to realize, I've played my part,
for all of those who said it could never be done,
this is for you,
tormented by my every undying devotion to you.

I have destroyed myself,
this time it was all or nothing,
I [bad word] the match and turned away,
torch the fields and pray for rain.

I have entered the eye of your storm,
a pause of affliction,
but I'll never feel so alive as i do when your world falls apart,
I feed on the thrill of knowing that all our hope is lost,
I want nothing more than to be given the chance to start again.

If I could find a cure, I'd cleanse myself of all I know,
cut the cold bring the plague,
start again,
I'd give anything to return to the nothing from which I came,
ash to ash, dust to dust,
start again.

I'd give anything to return to nothing

If not forgiven, will this all be forgotten?
As this guilt will outlive us both,
Dear God, What have I let myself [bad word]