[bad word] cecefreydaily

I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
smile, a laugh, every day of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you I never stray 
too far from the sidewalk
Because of you I learned to play 
on the safe side so I don't get hurt

Because of you
I find it hard to [bad word] not only me,
but everyone around me
Because of you I am afraid

I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same [bad word] thing

Because of you I never stray
too far from the sidewalk
Because of you I learned to play
on the safe side so I don't get hurt

Because of you I try
my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you I am afraid