Vanish in the world around me
Leaving ash and bone
My crown of thorns that shows no mercy
But it's my own
I grace these walls with all my failures
What have I [bad word] 

I think it's time for my forgiveness
Lick these wounds to heal
I'm losing faith, the silent poison
Pain I'd like to feel
I know it's time
Lay down, surrender
Someone take control

Cause I'm afraid to love
Cause I'm afraid I'll leave
I'm living with these lies
That only I believe

And I don't want to walk
But I don't want [bad word] Cause I'm afraid of failing
In front of everyone

Hold me down and hurt my feelings
I won't do the same
I'll cry in silent disappointed

Taking all the blame
But darkest hour always finds me
Pulling far away

Cause I'm afraid to win
Cause I don't wanna lose
And I'm afraid of falling
Under harsh review

And I'm afraid to live
And I'm too tired to try
I hide behind these shadows
Turn off all the lights

This never ending longing feeling
Waiting to be loved
I still believe in "In forever"
But it [bad word] 
I'm afraid to love
Cause I'm afraid I'll leave
I'm living with these lies
That only I believe

And I'm afraid to walk
But I don't [bad word] And I'm afraid of hurting
Myself and everyone