Nothing I do will ever make you proud of me. And I can never be, me around a family. That has no faith in the life I lead. No peace, No privacy. This house is far from a home. [bad word] is earn't not given. And you are far from earning it from me. I'm sorry, I could not be the son you always dreamed. I want to know if the city I live in. Feels as lonely as I do, when I'm alone at night. Sometimes I feel when I close my eyes are relax. I feel like I can happily die there. Leave all of this this behind forget about my life