i'm scared of swimming in the sea 
dark shapes moving under me 
every fear i swallow makes me small 
inconsequential things occur 
alarms are triggered 
memories stir 

it's not the way it has to be 

i'm afraid of what i do not know 
i hate being undermined 
i'm afraid i can be devil man 
and i'm scared to be divine 
don't mess with me my fuse is short 
beneath this skin these fragments caught 

when i allow it to be 
there's no control over me 
i have my fears 
but they do not have me 

walking through the undergrowth, to the house in the woods 
the deeper I go, the darker it gets 
i peer through the window 
knock at the door 
and the monster i was 
so afraid of 
lies curled up on the floor 
is curled up on the floor just like a baby boy 

i cry until i laugh 

i'm afraid of being mothered 
with my balls shut in the pen 
i'm afraid of loving women 
and i'm scared of loving men  [bad word] in every night 
don't tell me everything's alright 

when I allow it to be 
it has no control over me 
i own my fear 
so it doesn't own me 

walking through the undergrowth, to the house in the woods 
the deeper i go, the darker it gets 
i peer through the window 
knock at the door 
and the monster i was 
so afraid of 
lies curled up on the floor 
is curled up on the floor just like a baby boy 

i cry until i laugh