"hey" i said in my head, you told me to stop talking. my words stayed put obediently and subsequently i'm tracing the lines of my spinelessness tonight. 

i go past all of my half-heart starts, words that fell apart. 
i get tangled up in loose-leaf thoughts, rewrite them 'til they fall, 
and wallow in the thought that i might not ever start. 

so have i been forgotten? oh yeah, i've been forgotten. i don't see the silver lining, i give up on trying. 

from pacing to facing my problems, questions seem to haunt them. 
my habits, they persist. constant reminders of my purposeless, i'm insignificant. 

but i don't remember anymore. 

i know all this [bad word] to pass, please god, just make it fast. 
i watched the door close as you left and traces filled my head. 

so maybe i've got a lot to tell you. forgive me, i don't know where to start.