So they read the news today, 
you had vanished without a trace 
And you lacked the spine to turn your back and say goodbye 
Now you're just a ghost that occupies my thoughts, 
my every move 
All mountains for me to move 
Still I tell myself I'll be just fine 

All these excuses lead me to a sun never rising again 
You were not someone I knew, 
just someone I learned to see through 

You were lying when you said we'd be permanent 
When did I [bad word]  the one to give up? 

When did I [bad word]  a transition to the next one? 
Maybe this won't need to be repeated 
Maybe it's to show me what it means to be defeated 

Wasn't it enough, to trade your bed for lust, 
and tear me limb from limb? 

Hopeless heart, held inside of a desperate soul 
Smile while you're stabbing me in the back again 

Precious knife held inside of a man who waits to die 
Could you send, from my skin, 
and show me one person I can put my [bad word] in 
Bring me the sun, wake me up from, 
my dreams of giving up now 
I want to believe there's permanence in me 
When did I [bad word] the one to give up on?