It sucks that I can’t feel pain no more
Cuz I read the fortune and it told me so
But it doesn’t mean that it's better for my health
Cuz I cut open my heart and it spilled out the [bad word] 
For a second I felt divine
Like I was closer to being part of the sky
But the blood was right and it put me to sleep
Behind the wheel on 84 east
You always said that I was too shallow to see the [bad word] 
But I'm up to my neck in my own lies
That’s why I decided to cut the tie
Forget me now without the [bad word] 
Yer only lying to yerself but [bad word] you up
So pick up yer feet when yer crossing the tracks
Cuz its yer own luck yer [bad word] with

I cloak myself in blood to hide the anger that I hate so much of me
Cuz I can't handle feeling more and more that this is my own fault
I'm giving it up n hoping that there is and evil side down there for me
I’ve lost the motive to succeed so I'm ending this game to find out what I need
And when the [bad word] up I nail boards against the windows to keep me shut
What the [bad word] is going on I'm not following [bad word] to get along
Keep checking on my pulse cuz the air is cold and it’s the perfect day to die
I'm not acting out I'm just freeing my mind

I've tested my luck way too much
 [bad word] roulette without giving a [bad word] 
God does it feel like I'm gambling my life
For selling my soul while I was under the knife
And it seems this [bad word] is just piling up higher 
and I'm losing focus on my [bad word] desire
But that’s the game that I play when I'm in the dumps,
I act like it's cool but I don’t give a [bad word] 
And stop blaming me for not feeling your pain
I told you once before that I blew my [bad word] brains away
I'm hiding away everything that I use
And I'm consuming the problems that I had when it started
I wish I had a motive to go with
But I'm just feeding of yer grin that you use to lie

I tried to get a grip on life
But I'm just [bad word] sitting here all day
 [bad word] of my own home
Has [bad word] a prison cell and locked me in alone