LI(F)E?

Watch out! Here I am. My flat is like a lethal chamber
concrete box that every day I have to clamber
I try to breathe but there’s no air in this plays
And dusty mirrors hiding close my ugly face [bad word] it, [bad word] it, god! For years and years my life is [bad word] equal
Same mornings, noons and [bad word] evenings!
I’m so tired!

Sometimes it feels like time is standing still
Like a buried alive
Is it me for real?
Is it life? 
Life…

Wake up! 6 am. Your destination is [bad word] join the well-disposed lines of disappointed silent lambs
Shut your mouth and know your place! Just know your place!
And limber up your lips for flattery!
And forget your as for sodomy!
It’s just another day for pay!
It’s just another day in gray!

Sometimes it feels like time is standing still
Like a buried alive
Is it me for real?
Is it life? 
Life…