When I’m alone in my room sometimes I stare at the wall and at the back of my mind I hear my conscious call, telling me I need a boy who’s as sweet as a dove. For the first time in my life, I see I need love. There I was giggling about the games that I had played with many hearts and I’m not sayin’ no names. Then the thought occurred, tear drops made my eyes burn as I said to myself when am I gonna learn? I can feel it inside, I can’t explain how it feels all i know is that i’ll never dish another raw deal. Playin’ make believe, pretending that I’m [bad word]  holding in my laugh as i say that i love you. Saying no more, kissing you on the ear, whispering “I love you and I’ll always be here”, although I always reminisce, I can’t believe that I found adesire for [bad word] love floating around inside my soul because my soul is cold, one half of me deserves to be this way until I’m old, but the other half needs affection and joy and the warmth that is created by a girl and a boy.
I had a dream that you and I were both 16, holding hands after school, we didn’t care who would see, you’d tell me that I was pretty and that you’d love me for life, take care of me forever ‘cause you’d make me a wife. When the girls call me up and try to mess with my head, tell ‘em all that if I left you, you’d be better off dead ‘cause you’ll never love another, they just don’t understand that your life would be over if I found another man. You call me up on the phone, we were talking til we fell asleep, without you I think i’d rather be in [bad word]  life just wouldn’t be as fun, it wouldn’t be the same, I wanna stay with you forever and even take your last name ‘cause there’s no one in my life that makes me feel as good as you, the way we cuddle on the couch and share the secrets that we do with all the little jokes that no one else could ever know and the part of me that you can see ‘cause you’re the one I show. I know we gotta make it work, ‘cause baby you’re the man for me, without you by my side my world would be [bad word] and if you ever leave me lonely, boy my heart would be [bad word]  you know you touch me so now i know boy, I need love.
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