Never thought I'd be in this place
It's someone else's life I'm living
Wish I were living a lie
The hardest part is when the bough breaks
Falling down and then forgiving 
You didn't kiss me good-bye
I'm choking on the words I didn't get to say
And pray I get the chance one day

I [bad word]  I still swing open the door
I still think, you'll be there like before
Doesn't everybody out there know to [bad word] around
Some things a heart won't listen to
I'm still holding out for you

I can hear you smile in the dark
I can even feel you breathing
But daylight chases the ghosts
I see your coat and I fall apart
To those hints of you I'm clinging
Now's when I need them most
I should get up, dry my eyes and move ahead
At least that's what you would have said

I [bad word]  I still swing open the door
I still think, you'll be there like before
Doesn't everybody out there know to [bad word] around
Some things a heart won't listen to
I'm still holding out for you

Faithfully, I trace your name while you sleep
It's the only [bad [bad word] I feel

I [bad word]  I still swing open the door
I still think you'll be there like before

I [bad word]  I still swing open the door
I still think, you'll be there like before
Doesn't everybody out there know to [bad word] around
Some things a heart won't listen to
I'm still holding out for you

Holding out
Holding out for you