Elusive

She's a gambler spinning wheels,
poison victim but look of steel.
The coldest hearts you've ever felt,
The coldest hands you've ever held.

Taking down, on your way.
million miles, still no headway.
As I learn to live long,
In a mind I'm proud to roam.

She's elusive and I'm awake,
You're finally real, there's nothing fake.
mystery now to me and you,
Open my eyes and I'm next to you.
She said my destiny lies in the hands that set me free.

reckless night, she hears me breathe,
Cursing the sky at [bad word] 
They lost the wisdom deep inside,
When bitterness shows it's side.

If it's [bad word]  I am doomed,
What more is there to hold on to?
strand of her hair is all I own,
gift to me, this sorry soul.

She's elusive and I'm awake,
You're finally real, there's nothing fake.
mystery now to me and you,
Open my eyes and I'm next to you.
She said my destiny lies in the hands that set me free.

The sun in sails, and this ain't right.
There's more to her than meets the eye. [bad word] and goes at any time,
Back in my head at another time.

She's elusive and I'm awake,
You're finally real, there's nothing fake.
mystery now to me and you,
Open my eyes and I'm next to you.
She said my destiny lies in the hands that set me free