I�m not scared, but this is happening
I�m not afraid, but this is real
It [bad word] at once
From every single direction
This time I�m not sleeping at all
How could this be real
I�ve failed you
I was lying when I said
I was looking north
I was too scared to show what I am
Bear with me this is all I have left
This night be more than a single conversation
It�s been dancing around in my head
For quite some time
Just the though
Of cleaning up myself
I stare at the wall
Watching my time float away
It�s all been a blur
And nothing will change
I was lying
This is defeat