Dear mother I’m a terrible man 
I stare at your picture with a gun in my hand 
You’re still the one thing that’s keeping me alive in what they call home 
Somehow I still feel alone 

Under that black sky, it all feels the same 
And every failure justifies the epitaph on my grave 
“He was a good man just not enough to keep him safe from himself” 
I guess that’s what it would say 

‘Cause when you lose all, you realise that 
Some things will always be more precious than life 
While everyone lives unworried and carefree 
Sometimes it feels like you’d be better away from here 

What happened since the day faith left is a blur 
But I remember wishing that I was dead instead of her 
Don’t ever ask me to serve as a model 
Wish I could be a man and learn to pass the bottle  [bad word]  

I need a new plan before it’s my time 
To raise the flag and kiss this hateful place goodnight 
It’ll never want me, it’ll never need me, it’ll never love me 

Let down and cursed to be jaded 

With NO FATHER, NO GOD 

Another day as shark bait 
I face death with eyes wide open all the way 
So let the wolves in, no matter how far it gets me 
I fear that no one can save me