I've started now to wonder where I've been.  [bad word] dry on confidence again. 
So I turn [bad word] I've found in, a chemical. 
Everything around me starts to change  
I can feel my conscience rearrange 
The person everyone needs me to be...ephemeral  

And I don't really want to feel like this again 
Feeling like it's all my fault  
The paradox is warring in my skin 
And I can't let it go.  

All or nothing 
All or nothing I've been told 
You can't be something  
You can't be something you don't know 
Well I can, and I did, now you know. 

I've been told that I don't care enough. 
Honestly I really don't give a [bad word]  
Yet I do my best to suck it up and move along. 
I drink a little golden therapy 
Sing another broken melody 
The person everyone needs me to be...I don't belong  

And I don't really want to feel like this again 
Feeling like it's all my fault  
The paradox is warring in my skin 
And I can't let it go.