[Chapter 2. Heap Of Broken Images]

I turned my senses inside out to fight the sixth one
I strive with myself
I strive against it
Extrasensory perception
Sight, smell, taste, hearing, touch overwhelmed by the new [bad word] 

I walk alone through burned sensations / Material world escapes me
Nothing seems to move in the ravaged landscape of my eyes but I have a strange sensation
There is another reality, tangible
strange multiplicity of sensations seizes me now but it has nothing to do with what I can see, smell, taste, hear or touch.

My conscience distorts
I'm [bad word] by something stronger, something I can't control
I can't kick it out
Inside/outside conflicts
I can't let [bad word] inside through me
I see myself lying on my back as cold as marble

Wounded outside, burst inside, I'm beside myself just contemplating
How I'm lost inside me, dead inside, I'm beside myself just contemplating how he's lost

How I'm lonely in this world
Staring at myself, staring at the void
My nerves electrified
Shocked by the undefined
They try to revive myself in vain
Spasms shake my body
Spasms... I'm alive... I breathe...
I regain my strength
I breathe
I regain consciousness

I remember first the unpleasant noise of medical machines [bad word] distant and unreal
Pleasant and frightening emotions sweeping through me while I detached from myself and floated above my own body
I've never met deceased relatives or spiritual figures, nor walked through a tunnel to reach a strong and bright light
I was just watching myself dying as a witness of my own ending... I'm just a watcher...

I travelled too far
I took too much time [bad word] back [bad word] back to my fragile life
"I could not speak and my eyes failed
I was neither living nor dead
And I knew nothing
Looking into the heart of light
the silence..."

Wounded outside, burst inside, I'm beside myself just contemplating
How I'm lost inside me, dead inside, I'm beside myself eyes open staring at the void

Where are the people who saved my life and abandoned me in this hospital?
Where is civilization?
What are these empty places?
These devastated rooms
I can't say anything or put a word on things
I feel so lonely in my waste world...