Crawling [bad word] Bitterness

I've been driving down the dark and strange highways
and I lived it up
it's all a part of my life
I sold my soul to the devil
a desperate man in desperate times

Too blind to see, living on the lies that feed me illusions

I keep falling, falling into selfishness, crashing down
I am crawling, crawling through remains of bitterness

We've all been going through [bad word] it doesn't matter who you are [bad word] out a stronger man
you used to see the world
a grave burned out and cold and dead
now you're too old to give a [bad word] 
Too blind to see
living on the lies that feed me illusions
pretend to live
kills my enemies

I keep falling.....

I'm seen, is there anybody out there
I'm hurt (heard?) can you hear me screaming

I keep falling...

I am falling...
I am crawling...