Rotten from the inside

I
behaved as they said
I left my
feelings behind
Inner rage in my
rotten lungs
Facing [bad word] is
intricate

One glance, one
tought
There`s nothing
back
One voice, one
shout
You`re nothing but a
lie

I stare at you but I
can`t
All the things
i`ve been affraid of have
remained
I cannot just say a
word
I don`t have a place
in this world