What do I do to ignore them behind me?

Do I follow my instincts blindly?

Do I hide my pride from these bad dreams

And give in to sad thoughts that are maddening?

Do I sit here and try to stand it?

Or do I try to catch them redhanded?

Do I [bad word] some and get fooled by phoniness,

Or do I [bad word] nobody and live in loneliness?

Because I cant hold on when Im stretched so thin

I make the right moves but Im lost within

I put on my daily fasade but then

I just end up getting hurt again By myself (myself)

I ask why, but in my mind

I find I cant rely on (myself)

I cant hold on

To what I want when Im stretched so thin

Its all too much to take in

I cant hold on

To anything watching everything spin

With thoughts of failure sinking in If I turn my back Im defenseless

And to go blindly seems senseless

If I hide my pride and let it all go on then theyll

Take from me till everything is gone

If I let them go Ill be outdone

But if I try to catch them Ill be [bad word] 
If Im killed by the questions like a cancer

Then Ill be buried in the silence of the answer by myself (myself) [bad word] How do you think Ive lost so much

Im so afraid Im out of touch

How do you expect I will know what to do

When all I know Is what you tell me to Dont you (know)

I cant tell you how to make it (go)

No matter what I do, how hard I (try)

I cant seem to convince myself (why)

Im stuck on the outside (2x) I cant hold on

To what I want when Im stretched so thin

Its all too much to take in

I cant hold on

To anything watching everything spin

With thoughts of failure sinking in (2x)