I am washing my hair with soap 
I am sitting down in the shower 
It is this dirty type of clean 
That keeps me trapped in here for hours?

Still I [bad word] and [bad word] until my body bleeds,
Convince myself I [bad word] clean.
Forget and ignore who I used to be,
That kid is [bad word] back.

Relax my muscles and
All of a sudden I am scared. 
All of a sudden I can't breathe. 
All of a sudden I am nothing 
In this moment you are everything 

She says: "can you feel that?"
Oh, what a marvelous sensation 
She says: "Could you please take me off speaker phone? This is a private conversation."

And I am washing my hair with soap...

But there is air inside of my lungs 
And it is keeping me afloat 
He says his grandpa's in the mafia,
He is the nicest guy I know. 

So I [bad word] and run,
Maybe drive my car.
Baby, look at me now, I [bad word] so far 
And I don't know where my family's from 
But I've got this stereotypical temper 
I cannot shake.