Faded / Los Angeles (existen)
album and band name
from The Pursuit *Anniversary Edition by The ILLZ

"Faded" 

[Verse 1] 

I ain’t scared to fall 
I gotta stand tall 
Even through it all 
I mean it hurts 
Me and moms we don’t talk that much 
I don’t even get to tell her how I feel [bad word] 
When I’m on stage 
You ever go and feel that touch 
Probably not 
Can’t relate 
I don’t chill that much 
I be alone 
While you're wilding out in the club 
I be at home 
Nah don’t wanna answer the phone 
I don’t really wanna talk 
Or deal with crazy texts' 
From these little jump offs 
Or my crazy exes 
Don’t’ relay the message 
I’m just Thinking of life 
Pondering on my decisions 
Hope I’m living it right 
That's what I’m on 
 [bad word]  

[Verse 2] 

Too much on my mind 
I’m just needing to vent out 
some days are hard 
They're just taking your strength out 
Tired of the day dreams 
Bringing the Benz out 
Impatient but life’s just stretching the length out 
Of hatred 
Feel I’m stuck in the matrix 
lot of new faces 
And nothing’s left sacred 
Before it gets better, say you’ll feel less well 
And forget about the drama with me and my ex girl  [bad word] is [bad word] 
But we can’t erase the past 
And somethings don't end no way but bad 
but regardless of whatever never have regrets 
Everyday we live life gotta deal with threats 
but I gotta move on though I'm filled with stress 
I'm prepared for the worst and Just hope for the best 
any problem find a quick resolution in the worst way 
While the voices in my head say 

All the things we took for granted 
The words still live on in my head 
and all the times I took for granted 
all the words I never said 
 [bad word]  

"Los Angeles (existen)" 

[Verse 1] 

You know I’m buggin right 
You gotta know bout this dream 
I had the other night 
I was tossing – turning 
Watching everything I ever loved start burning, 
Yearning 
Screaming at the top of my lungs 
But nobody could see where the [bad word] from 
I’m numb 
Stopped feeling 
When I started illing 
And lord willing 
I can make a killing 
yet money doesn’t solve it all 
But it solves most of it 
It stops the fall 
See the money that I’m making 
Can stop it all from breaking 
And everything I’m taking 
Can stop from ever making 
wrong turn 
And even though some burn 
The young learn 
To hold down to all of they guns firm 
The sun burn 
Will hurt many 
Even the man that has plenty 
Started with a penny 
Automatic like a semi 
When it lets off 
I sweat the stress off 
And get the best off 
then try to take the best course 
And never give em less force 
I’m focused 
And from the start that’s always been the plan 
Its hard to keep up with expectations and demands 
But I still continue forward cause I can 
I am a man 
I close my eyes and feel the breeze while stepping in the sand 
maybe I was born to take a stand 
maybe for these grands 
I'd be willing now to do it all 
and I am 
maybe this is where its all headed 
maybe if I get it 
I let it [bad word] me 
or maybe I’ll regret it 
maybe I would trade it all 
for a little credit 
maybe I can dead it 
straight up pick up 
from where I left off 
it’s like a stick up 
my soul is getting richer 
intensity off the Richter 
maybe they were trying to hard to fix us 
picture everything you ever imagined.....