suicidal haze, unreal like a torturous dream
Old stinging mental wounds, still raw and [bad word] bleeding
Drowning in the womb of misery, the mother of depression
The slaughter of all hope, the grim death [bad word] 
Sell your soul to evil; sell your soul to death
... Suicide, suicide, suicide, suicide, suicide, suicide, suicide...
dead empty stare into [bad word] of my world
world I have already left, so many years ago