In my restless dreams, 
 I see that town. 
 Silent Hill. 
 You promised you'd take me 
 there again someday. 
 But you never did.

 Well I'm alone there now... 
 In our 'special place'... 
 Waiting for you. 

Waiting for you to  [bad word] to see me. 
 But you never do. 
 And so I wait, wrapped in my 
 cocoon of pain and loneliness. 
 I know I've done a terrible 
 thing to you. Something you'll 
 never forgive me for.

I think you know what I mean... 

 Even so, I'm glad to [bad word] 
 home. I've missed you terribly. 
 But I'm afraid James. 
 I'm afraid you don't really 
 want me [bad word] home. 
 Whenever [bad word] see me, 
 I can tell how hard it is on you... 

I don't know if you 
 hate me or pity me... 
 Or maybe I just disgust you... 

 I'm sorry about that. 

 When I first learned that 
 I was g]oing to die, I just 
 didn't want to accept it. 
 I was so angry all the time and I 
 [bad word] out at everyone I loved most. 
 Especially you, James. 

 That's why I understand 
 if you do hate me. 

 But I want you to 
 know this, James. 

 I'll always love you. 

 Even though our life together had 
 to end like this, I still wouldn't 
 trade it for the world. We had 
 some wonderful years together. 

 Well this letter had gone on 
 too long so I'll say goodbye. 
 I told the nurse to give 
 this to you after I'm gone. 
 That means that as you read 
 this, I'm already dead. 

 I can't tell you to remember me, 
 but I can't bear for you to 
 forget me. 

 These last few years since I 
 became ill...I'm so sorry for 
 what I did to you, did to us... 
 You've given me so much and 
 I haven't been able to return 
 a single thing. 

 That's why I want you to live for yourself now. 
 Do what's best for you, James. 

 James... 

 You made me happy.